Emotions are the essence of humanity, the raw truths that exist within our souls. Emotions allow us to feel the pure fire that exists within us. The denial of our true emotions creates fear within us, and this fear is what ultimately causes pain.
When our emotions are experienced so many things can happen within us, sometimes we experience something as simple as a smile, a tear, a butterfly in our stomach or a flutter in our heartbeat. Sometimes we experience something we simply can’t describe, a total overhaul of our psyche. Experiencing this proves us human, as much as we may want to deny these feelings, often, the feelings won’t let us. As vulnerable as it makes us, as open as it is, it is the ultimate, undeniable truth that exists within our souls.
What causes these feelings, what stems them, how do they start, and why are they so uncontrollable? Sometimes we have a need to control the emotions that we are feeling, whether we want to or not, sometimes it is absolutely necessary. What makes it so hard to control? When all logical and conscious thoughts inside of you are telling you that what you’re feeling is not right, but every sub-conscious part of our being is urging you to give into those feelings as if there was no other worry in the world. What then? What choice do we make? Is there a right choice? If we give into one, we are denying the other. If we give into our feelings and the logical side of us was right; we feel the pain and regret of our decision. If we attempt to think logically and bury the truest of our raw emotions deep within our soul, we may never be capable of rousing these emotions again. At what point do we decide, at what point does it become ok to believe that our feelings are true?
Well, either I’m crazy, or I’m just rambling on with this rant! I guess I can be a little random sometimes!
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1 comment:
Aha- so this is where the Question came from. I was thinking about this forever. Over analyzing things is a huge problem for me. I do not trust emotions at all. Emotions, especially mine, are erratic, irrational, easily manipuated - I am much better in my head, in the intellectual realm. But you can't ignore emotions either, and finding the balance, knowing what emotions are lying to you is hard and esp when you have a crazy brain like mine its overwhelming.
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