Lonely Thoughts?

You ever think strange thoughts when you're lonely? I do, obviously, or why would I be writing a blog called lonely thoughts?

So, these thoughts, when I am lonely, I don't really mean sitting somewhere alone, with no one else around... of course, i mean the deep emotional heart aching longing for companionship kind of "lonely". When you want someone to want to be around you so much, that you don't even know how to think about anything else?

I do this all to often, unfortunately. It is not so much that I want to be in a "relationship", or want to have a "partner/spouse/boyfriend/etc", just that I want someone to want to be with me, around me, and/or all about me! I guess I just feel that there is a human desire, or need, to have mutual companionship and caring in one's life.

Obviously, there is some reason (or many) that I am not in a relationship, or have this type of full time companionship, and I guess some of that could be construed as my fault... I suppose, but really, being in a "bad relationship" is about the same as being in "no relationship' if not worse. So I have to deal with this one way or another... Pro's and Con's, I suppose. :(

So... Here are today's "lonely thoughts":

Do you suppose its true that there is "one" person out there for everyone? And if so, where are they? Who are they? and how are you supposed to know if you find them... what if you have already found them, and you look right past them and didn't even realize they were the "one"? Seriously, I mean, I don't think this is supposed to be this complicated? But it is!?!? I think? What if you find the "one", and realize that they weren't the one, does that mean that you're done? There are no more out there for you, sorry, had your chance... you lose! Game over?

I know everyone has had these thoughts at some point or another... or at least I hope so, maybe I am the only one, in which case, I feel like nut job right now, and i apologize for wasting your time on my silly antics!

But seriously, I suppose that it is just my emotions coming out for a joy ride today, or perhaps it is something deeper that stems from this longing desire for companionship in my life, but, then again, maybe I am just silly, and have no idea what the heck I am talking about, and should just shut up now!?!? OK.

Well, that's my rant!

:)